What is going on?

I am an admittedly bad blogger. When I used to work for the man and he used to keep me down I had so many thoughts all day long that blogging became a way for me to 'discuss' them in a corporate world void of meaningful talk. But now that I'm in grad school studying something I love with other people who love it, all I do all day is talk about the stuff I would have blogged back in the day. So I get home and I don't have the energy to write out my rants or ideas because I've already bounced them off my friends here who think relatively similar to me. So the blog has become something else, but I'm not sure what. I am not a journaler and I never have been. I hate that I feel like a bad Christian for not journaling. But I just never had it in me. I'm an extremely introspective person - for better or worse - but I find that writing my thoughts out doesn't really help much. I prefer writing poetry or painting, neither of which I'm very good at. But you can't blog that stuff.

So what should I do? Maybe I could try to be more disciplined and write about what I'm studying. Or perhaps I could talk about the books that I read or see in the library and want to read. I realize that I'm a novice at theology. I just don't know what I'm doing. So when I read blogs like America's Young Theologian, Faith & Theology, or Chrisendom I just feel like an idiot. Trying to blog like those guys would be like trying out for the Astros - I would just look like a fool.

So what is my role in the blogosphere? I guess that question will slowly become more clear as I get closer to figuring out my role in the world. Oh well...